Not What I Expected

I started the book A Long Way Gone: Memoirs of a boy soldier and read the first chapter. It wasn't what i thought it would be. The author/narrarator just tells it how it is and doesn't try to cover up the horror of what happened or his emotions. At times I think that it was too descriptive, especially the scene in the village where he used to live. It made me sick to my stomach knowing that this really happened and that there are many similar stories. However I want to keep reading but can't until teach tells us to. Guess I'll have to wait and see what will happen next.